Moments of Clarity

Back in my day, people did what they say they would do.  You would tell another human being something and then, miraculously, you would do that thing.  Be it, show up when you'd say you would.  Or!  Surprisingly!  Do what you said you'd do.  Even if time had passed when you said it.  Even if something you deemed 'better' came along in the interim.  You would fucking say something and then take action in that department.  Is that called follow-through?  Fucking integrity?  Where has that gone?

People say things now.  People say a lot of things now.  There is no action.  There is no follow-through.  There is no "word" anymore.  There is just texting or messaging lame excuses that are so transparent it hurts and then nothing.  Then there is nothing.  I am a lost and forgotten fool in a sea of wandering minds and losers.  When I say I'm going to do something, I do it.  It's that simple.  Now, when things are said, buyer prepare to be tired and unaware that the person on the other end of things is immediately scheming words to somehow get out of the verbal contract made.  That's it though.  It's a verbal fucking contract.  If you tell me something, I am going to believe you.  Does that make me a fucking imbecile to trust you or you a fucking dick face for speaking words untrue?  The latter, for sure.  I have been bailed on more times than I can count.  But it never used to be this way.  Before cell phones, texting, messaging, instant this and that...there was only you and another human telling each other things that were true.  If you were dying, you would still show up and the other party would send you the fuck home.  Now?  Well it's quite another story indeed.  Now, there is talk and agreements and contracts written in the stars that are never fulfilled.  Perhaps in the moment all is well, and then...well and then whatever.  I'm over it.  I will not be the person who teaches other people that it's ok to bail.  Fuck me for being so naive in this day and age that I trust you at your word.  Fuck me for arranging my schedule thusly to accommodate your needs.  Nah, fuck you and the lies you rode in on.