I am so grateful

Well, most of the time...not so much right now. I am grumpy. Could be caused by a great many thing, and at this current minute, I have no clue as to what is affecting me more. Usually though, I am grateful for several, simple things that we all overlook on a daily basis:
-I have all of my fingers and toes(appendages a plenty)
-I am pretty intelligent(or at least I fake it really well)
-I am cute...yeah I said it...most people hate that term when describing themselves but I'm cool with it.
-My senses are highly developed and serve me rather well
-I have a loving family, though spread to the winds, we are deeply connected
-My friends are few...my real friends...but mighty
-I have lots of coin
-I am gifted with creativity and use it whenever i can
-Most of all, I am grateful to be alive.

I miss theatre however. I miss being immersed in something greater than myself and any other moving part. I need, no, crave something to occupy my thoughts. Idle hands and all that bullshit. I haven't done a production since February of this year...no wonder I'm so pissy. If you are not fully participating in what you love, what's the fucking point? I'm not in a position right this moment to do anything highly spontaneous or creative and that has left me frustrated and ansy. I could rub one out, but that would take not nearly enough time or energy...I've gotten pretty fast. I miss meeting new and equally as driven beings who i can relate to on levels most people only ponder. I miss getting drunk with those whose opinion counts for something more than how my day was, or what i ate for breakfast. I want substance. I want time to stand still. I want to be a part of something that, though not particularly life saving, motivates and inspires. I want to do it full time dammit. No more shit day jobs that make me want to wretch. No more ridiculous coworkers to avoid. I am grateful for the productions I've been involved in thus far...I just want more...always more. I suppose I'm grateful for that as well.